越来越觉得自己好孤单

lonely...i m Mr.Lonely

忙了一整天

要睡觉了~虽然很累~可是看到她的笑容~是很开心的

尤其是多人一起~大家笑得特别开心

很爱埋怨~可是无可否认~我还是愿意去做

心情好不平静~一点就要爆发

虽然说很多事情~他也可以做

可是他却好像一切的不管他的事情

只做他平常作的

我还是有点心理不平衡

最近压力吗？最近脾气暴躁吗？最近不能睡吗？

我也不知道是不是压力

觉得怪怪的~很累啊

这里也累~那里也累~那边也累

全部都累

好想找个时间自己出去走走

休息一下~与周围的人暂时隔离

等到补充力量了~即时1小时2小时都OK

去打个球~至少我觉得我还有可以做我想做的东西

 

今天四舅来做厕所~他真的很厉害勒

哈哈

虽然我不是很会~可是听他解释~我多少得到点知识

也去买了沙和cement...回到来又去抓鸡...

1点多去到5点多才回来

一回来又要煮东西给妈妈吃

怎知道今天的鱼比较大块

蒸不熟~哈哈

妈妈看着我~还笑着~我问他熟吗~他对我微笑的摇头

哈哈~我再去蒸了15分钟

陪妈妈一起吃~虽然没东西吃~我也只是在隔壁拿鱼肉出来

他很爱吃姜~说他要吃~我就问说姜好吃吗

他说好吃~我便吃了一个~我对他说...不好吃的...他笑了

很简单的一个陪伴~很简单的一个动作

我们都笑了~以前自己没有试过这样子

煮东西给妈妈吃~陪妈妈吃饭~陪她聊天

 

虽然比较累~还是开心的~不过当被问到累吗

会不时的想哭~也不知道怎么了

可能肩膀的责任比较重吧

怎样都好~加油

 

人生有很多体验~有人体验过~有人却没机会体验

人生很多路~有人走过~有人却没机会走过

走过了就没有遗憾了

有时候很多事情不要拿来烦~会让自己更累

看开点~能做就做~不能做到的就顺其自然

不要想太多~听听歌~找睡觉的感觉

希望今晚能睡吧~明天还要早醒~

晚安

又哭了

我又哭了

责任重了

压力重了

心情也重了

 

~加油~

~加油~

下一秒

我懂得你的苦。。。因为我也经历过

我更懂得他的辛酸。。。因为他一人承担全部

不知不觉到了分叉路
还是自己的迷糊

要去决定下一站的幸福

要去决定下一秒的方向

给我指引

~希望一切都能顺利~

~Another way of Life~

Finally done all my things at the end of my uni life...

life is so fast yet so short...i had passed my 4 years uni life...

just like yesterday...

however, the last semester was really a hard time...

especially final few weeks...haha...

i was glad that i survived through...it was a good experience for me...

at least i did my best...haha...

yet...our exam grade was announced...luckily i can maintain the point...

hopefully i can flush the PTPTN away...haha...

no debt...but new challenge for next stage of my life.. (WORKING)...

28/6/2013...i reach NT early in the morning...haha...

so fast today...from my sis hse (Subang until Simpang Pulai)...only took 2 hours...

feeling sleepy...so i had decided to take rest...take a sleep...

very fast i fall asleep...haha...too tired i think...

when wk up...7.45am...continue my journey...

reach home around 9am++...

only take around 3 hours ++ to reach home from KL...surprise...

the first day in home...kang kang still rmr me...will not ignore me when i sayang him...haha

still the cute boy...but for ah kai...still like to cry so much...'ku bao'...

don knw y...he like to follow me n ask me to play badminton with him...@@

what a curious day...

wash my car as well...few months didnt wash it...sorry for making u so dirty...yet u had to fetch me from here to there...xin ku le...xiao bai...haha....

go play ball at PB at night...just realize that PB bridge had been constructed...

feeling totally new...haha...

feeling anxious when going PB to play ball...luckily i still can cope with my nervous...

a good day...since few months ago...i didnt play ball already...haha

still nt bad...after that going 'wei xing shi' to eat mee with biao...

since so late and yet so far...2mr only go eat bak kut teh le...

a very tired day...feeling sleepy and tired...always feel wanna sleep after come home...haha

take a good rest...

this few days try to learn something news...add oils...

be4 start working...haha....nitez~

~S0rrY~

对不起~我累了~

等东西作完了~我要消失一个星期~

relax一下~~哈哈~~

+.+

~很闷啊~

很闷啊

这个又要想...那个又要想

这个又要做...那个又要做

这个又要烦...那个又要烦

INNER PEACE

快回来

我需要你

林俊杰 因你而在(听着这首歌)

果然听歌就放松

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我为你心跳~我为你祈祷

因为爱让我们能遇到

因为你开始燃烧

痛才慢慢治疗

我要和你拥抱

牵你的手一起去奔跑

你存在的这一秒

会不会是我依靠

给我的微笑~全都记在脑海了

变成快乐的符号

节奏在跳躍~这是恋爱的预兆

挑动我每一个细胞

天亮才睡觉

让我思绪都颠倒

这次我不想放掉

防备全关掉~只许你无理取闹

慢慢走进你的步调

心也一层一层被你融掉

一天一天为你开窍

一秒一秒想你的微笑

我为你心跳~我为你祈祷

因为爱让我们能遇到

因为你开始燃烧

痛才慢慢治疗

我要和你拥抱

牵你的手一起去奔跑

你存在的这一秒

会不会是我依靠

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~只能...说~

昨晚跟兄弟们去喝茶

听keet说去台湾的东西

他还买了DSLR...哈哈

我也要...然后要背包旅行去台湾

昨晚到了很夜..妈才跟我说叫我去拜拜...忘了叫三哥来吃饭

拜拜的时候...发生了些怪事(不知道是不是自己想多了)

有只香突然掉下去...然后就断了

然后当拜拜的时候...不时听到门在摇(有声音)

好像有东西撞门要入的感觉...

当时突然的灵感...感觉到应该是三哥(你相信吗?)

我起了鸡皮疙瘩...拜拜完后...我特地走到门那里

在听一次...真的有声音...很像撞门的感觉...@@

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早上起来后就拜拜...过后就搬东西...

去新家搬风扇...aircond坏了...

回来后才发现衣服还没买...明天就初一了

搬完东西后就赶快去Yawata找衣服

衣服还真的难买...去了1小时半勒...

试了快10多件...肥了...肚子的肉跑出来了

真的要运动了...要瘦点...不然很难买衣服

L穿下去有点紧了

试到有点放弃...要回的时候突然看到一件...

XL的...去试穿...终于OK了

第一次自己去买衣服...托勒那么长的时间...还真累

下次不要了...

哈哈

~新年快乐~

~3xP3ri3nc3D~

This few days continuously working...there are many things that considered unlucky for me...

even i think is a small things...

1) 31/1/2013 is my first time officially drive lorry...the small one....

The gear is really hard to switch...after i tell my father about it...we laugh for it...but after that...he is getting serious...That is really hurt...when he say i can drive y u cant...btw...i didn really say i cant...i just say is hard...It is hurt when u r getting license but do not use it at all...my father ask my cousin to drive and i go with my cousin to bagan serai for coloring the chicks...At night, he still ask me to take the key and show me how to shift...n he say LAN SAI...i feel that...i try to help u to save ur money n time...help u drive...at least u should say...yeah..is a bit hard to shift...but u hv to use to it...but not like scolding me...(disappointed)...

2) For the chick, one remaining one cant walk properly...just sit there and WAITING TO DIE...is funny when u gv to others and left this small green chick...after i saw it...i just think of...is pathetic...just born for few days...n now...just lying there to wait...the time to go...i cant effort it...i tk some water n fed the chick...by holding him/her...My father speaks very loudly n say 不要去弄他...早知道我丢掉它...don knw y...mb all things come together...my mood is damn damn damn damn sick...nearly cry when i think of the chick...i think it is my weakness...After i fed the chick...my father still say...go wash ur hand...

3) The sealing machine for boxes...I have to seal the chicks' boxes after filling it...i hate it...it makes my hand fulled with 水泡...n i tell my mum that the metal is quite small..is hard to fit the thick plastic ropes into it...n i think i hear my mum tell my father about it..even i didn hear what my father say...but i think i m getting scolded again...

Don knw y...hope to help but what i get is really...mess my mood up...haiz...unlucky day for january 2013...last day of it...i m totally moody...n my father didn tell me that i need to go to work or not..they go for it but i stay in home...mb 2mr will ... haha...cant sleep at this moment...tired...

my both hands were getting sunburned...my shoulder was getting injured...my hand was getting 水泡...few days working...gather up all the undesired things...haiz...